i am not a huge swearer…but i don’t have any other words.

it’s now 5 am.
and she’s still up.
she slept for a toal of 45 minutes from 3:45 until 4:30 in my arms and then i fed her, because i just didn’t know what else to do.

and she’s still awake.

fuck.
fuckity. fuck. fuck.

and it’s not like it’s going to be any better in the morning.
my stepmom is working until 1 and my dad is no help.

i’m drowning.
help.