I wish I knew where this image came from. I saved it to the camera roll on my iphone about a million years ago — I had stumbled upon it accidentally while scouring Etsy for photo props and realized that The Avett Brothers are so good for my soul. The first song I ever heard of theirs was “I and Love and You” during an episode of One Tree Hill. I was immediately obsessed. This lyric, of course, is from “Head Full Of Doubt/Road Full of Promise” which, coincidentally, is my alarm ringtone. It’s a beautiful song, really, even at 5:40am.

Things have been bubbling in me of late.

Someone recently called me “nearly 40” and while I don’t think 4o is old by any stretch — some of my most favorite and un-old people on earth turned 40 this year (hi sister!) – and while at 36 and 1/4 I’m actually not nearly 40 I started thinking about my legacy; who I am, what I have done, and what I still have yet to do.

How will my children remember me? How will *you* remember me?

There are things I still want to do; there are things I still want to be.

And hot damn if I’m not going to take The Avett Brothers’ advice and decide what to be…and go be it.